Creativity and Expression

 

Allow yourself to create.

It doesn't matter what the spectrum your creativity lies in, I urge you to engage in the process of creating. You would be surprised by just how much that process grants you access into yourself in a defined manner. I think creativity sets you on a pathway of birthing avenues you might have never explored within yourself. It draws some rarely noticed things to life. It is just like painting.

I'm working on a book that I intend to publish in the future. It focuses on some parts of my life, my creative evolution and how I have been able to progress from certain positions within myself to better ones. Throughout my childhood and teenage years, I felt like two people. I sensed the existence of someone else inside me separate from the one outside. 

That made me unsure of how to put myself out there so many times. I had internal conversations where I'd constantly question myself about who I had to be. I wondered if that part would be understood, heck i was trying to understand it. The back and forth presented a stillness inside me. Having to cage something that can't be contained, not knowing what to do with it or where to go with it broke me down. It felt weird. 

Around 2019, I started to realise that I was that kind of a person for a reason. I accepted that it is a gift to create nomatter how it manifests. God blessed everyone with the ability to express themselves. So my part is to express my ideas the way I feel I need to. Luckily expression exists in many ways. 

I have lived with a world building inside me. Most of the times I feel my insides communicate with me, my heart beating faster over something I come across, hear or see. Nature holds a lot of messages. I admit that some of the ways I've had to deal with sudden inner messages are intense but I can say all that birthed the passion to create and express myself. Although it was heavy on me I think it is one of the major things that drove me into self discovery. I'm still working on it. I'm rising within myself. I can feel that where I am at now is higher and more assuring than any position I've ever been within myself. The decision to look at myself more closely was due to the need to set myself free from these disconnected two selves. I realised that the only way to my freedom, was to let the other obvious self listen to this inner strong voice, let them hold hands and do what I felt I had to do. That was to express myself. We can never graduate and say we're done with learning about ourselves. It's continuous. I have developed into a better person by constantly listening to myself. It has always traced back to the fact that I was born with a creative spirit. Not so long ago it was dying on the inside, looking for a voice that can let it out. It's obvious that no other voice can do that. Why? it came to me so it's up to me to do it. It's my responsibility to show my worth and my true self. Let it shine. As I say this I'm speaking to others as well. 

Expression is expression how else do you want it to be or define it? 

When I say Expression I'm not just talking about letting something out or 'expression' dictionary term but rather all of it that needs to come out. That not only introduces to others what we want to let out but also what they might just be missing out on or even you.

I like to think of myself as an expression artist. And I know that one of the things that are important when somebody says 'express yourself, I know you got it in there', is whatever that you're expressing what do you do it from. I express myself from what life has given me. Life has prepared for everyone a unique journey. Every day of your life gives you something, not just anything but something. Pay attention to life and the detail it inspires in your natural self. Work on what that might be saying to you. Expression is a blessing indeed. Express yourself always, in whatever way you feel that you should, it will always make sense.